Hello everyone! I am finally starting my own study diary here, so my name is Hina and am 21 years old. I wrote my first högskoleprov in March and got the result 0,88.
- kvant del
XYZ 15/24
KVA 17/20
NOG 7/12
DTK 12/24
Totalt 51/ 80, Poäng: 1.1
- Verbal Del
ORD 8/20
LÄS 9/20
MEK 5/20
ELF 9/20
Totalt 31/80, Poäng: 0.5

143 days are left for the next test, let's see how much can I stay persistent. I will be updating here on what I study and how much I study. The problem is that I like to run away, from anything or say everything that makes me uncomfortable and I know for a fact that this is a long journey and this initial push of motivation is not enough for me. That's the main reason I want to start writing here, to put some sense into my brain so it can stop being so intimidated with the reality of life.
Dreams don't exist when you are awake, they are for people who are sleeping. I have been asleep so far and now the only thing I want is to wake up

Hej Hina,

Roligt att läsa igenom din reflektion!
Det låter som att du har en plan med plugget och att skrvia här för att följa sin utveckling är smart.
Jag tror att ingen kan få 0,88 på provet då det ska vara en siffra delbar med 5 t.ex. 0,80 eller 0,85. Men 0,88 är då medelvärdet för provet "rätta mig om jag har fel". Du får ditt reslutat genom att addera resultat på båda delar och dela med 2.

Jag skulle rekommndera att du har realistiska mål för att inte bli omotovierat sedan t.ex. en höjning från 0-80-1,70 är en stor höjning, och kanske skulle behöva lite mer tid än 5 månader. Du kan göra små mål istället för att komma närmare ditt målresultat. Bli inte omotiverat om du inte får det du siktar på från första gången trust the process.

Önskar dig all lycka till!

Yes, you are right that 0,88 is the average, and the actual result is 0,80.

Today I bought the VIP membership and went through the speed reading course.
- Revised 200 words on memrise
- Read 2 chapters of a novel (Döden för oss samman)

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Varför skriver du på engelska?

Hina J. skrev: ↑tor 01 jun, 2023 23:47 Yes, you are right that 0,88 is the average doodle cricket and the actual result is 0,80.

Today I bought the VIP membership and went through the speed reading course.
- Revised 200 words on memrise
- Read 2 chapters of a novel (Döden för oss samman)

Articles
- Fler batonger kommer inte lösa krisen i sjukvården
- HBR’s Most-Read Research Articles of 2022

Jag antar att du gör precis som du tänkt dig.

Hello everybody! it's been a long time since I last wrote here. I hope the result today was just as you prayed for and if not, know that you are not alone and you can do it as long as you don't give up on your dream. I just wanted to update here a little on how it went with my autumn attempt and the things I learned.

I started studying around June and stayed consistent with my memrise lists and articles, but I completely neglected math. I thought the last 1-2 months would be enough to go through the basics and refresh the concepts why bother to learn something when I will forget it anyway? Well, my friends that's the only recipe of disaster you could ever need. The last 2 months arrived I moved to solving past papers, in the beginning, it was bad I thought maybe my brain needed a little warmup but even after 3 weeks of solving papers my scores were not increasing. But when it was around 10 days left or so my score increased to 1,6 in Kvant and 1,2 in verbal, idk if was because I was familiar with the questions or because I got better at guessing but it really made me happy, 4 days left to the test and all the exhaustion from past 2 months came at once. Physically I was completely fine but still, my brain was in a fog. It was as if my ability to think vanished and I was just staring at the screen with nothing going into my brain. The day before the test around 5 pm I finally came back to my senses, the guilt of wasting time, the fear of failing, the sense of urgency everything just flooded through me. I collected all the printed past papers I had and started solving them again, the time was 01:15 and I was still awake contemplating if I should get some sleep or bust my head on the wall...lol. The test day came, I was already aware of the test day routine from last time so regardless of having a pretty bad headache I was calmer, and tbh at the moment I thought I was doing quite well, however, the reality seemed to be different when I got home and checked the answers later.

All in all, that was my experience. With all the tearful nights and hopeless days, I still managed to increase my score from 0,80 to 1,0 ( 1,2 in kvant and 0,8 in verbal) so that's something. I still think of things "What if I studied more?" " What if I tried something else?" "What if I stopped working and studied full-time?" but then it just makes me more guilty. Nothing I think of now can change what already happened. Today came the antagningsbesked, with 1,0 in my baggage there was no hope to begin with, but still, when I opened the page my heart felt so heavy there it stood reserv 1000 some´thing in HP kvot and 300 something in BII. So that was it , now after a whole day of carrying the burden of this whole year I am sitting here and empting my heart out. I am planning to start studying again for next test with more focus on math. I hope this time I will not repeat my mistakes and get a result that will not leave me with these lurking questions of what ifs..